"They swore an oath to the Lord with a loud voice and with shouting and with trumpets and with horns. And all Judah rejoiced over the oath, for they had sworn with all their heart and had sought him with their whole desire, and he was found by them, and the Lord gave them rest all around." 2 chronicles 15:14-15
i couldn't even wrap my mind around what that would look like. an entire nation seeking God with their whole desire.
i want to seek Him with my whole heart and whole desire. but i don't think i do. not even for a day. my desires are so easily diluted and diminished. i'm eventually satisfied with nachos. or pickles. or a hug.
but am i driven with my whole heart, to seek God with all my desire?
what does that even look like?
what does a day - a year - a life look like, when the whole desire to chase after God is ignited and nourished?
is it a life of obedience? prayer? communion? worship? joy? peace?
where do diapers and dishes fit in? obviously, they must. the people of Judah didn't leave their homes or responsibilities to seek after some mystical oneness with God.
right where they were, with their babies and homes and jobs, they sought Him - and found Him - with their whole desire.
"Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased." C.S. Lewis, The Weight of Glory
i definitely want the holiday at the sea.